I have meant what I have done. Or – I have often meant what I have done. Or – I have sometimes meant what I have done. Or – I have tried to mean what I was doing. (Jasper Johns) I confess here and now – when I was bobbing around in a canoe back in the summer of 1998, circling my prey again and again, I didn’t know that this was what I meant until today, October 19, 2010.